Turning It Around

Addiction is a journey through darkness. It’s overwhelming, suffocating, and affects not only the person caught in its grip but also everyone who loves them. I know because I lived it. But even in the deepest despair, there is always a spark of hope. This is my story—a personal journey of turning that darkness into light and the importance of never giving up on yourself or your loved ones.

At certain times of the year, I find it particularly difficult. My mom passed away on June 12th, and the months leading up to that date were always filled with pain and sadness. Each memory of her, each loss, weighed heavily on me. However, I reached a point where I was tired of being trapped in that sorrow. Instead of letting those memories haunt me, I decided to create new ones. This year, on her birthday, May 10th, I chose to celebrate. I published my memoir in honor of my mom and made it a day for rejoicing. I made that day happy and exciting because I refused to let grief define me anymore. It wasn’t easy, but it was the first step in reclaiming my life from the pain that held me captive.

I’m writing this for you—the one who feels like there’s no way out. I’ve been where you are. There were days when I didn’t think I could make it when I thought the drugs had stolen everything from me, and when I believed I wasn’t worth saving. But I was wrong. If you’re feeling hopeless, I want you to know that change is possible. It’s not too late to rewrite your story. I want to offer you a glimmer of hope. Addiction doesn’t have to be the end; it can be the beginning of something new. You have the power to take the first step toward freedom.

My recovery wasn’t something I did alone. I had my dad, who stood by me when I couldn’t stand on my own. He tried not to enable me but he didn’t abandon me. He balanced tough love with unconditional support in a way I’ll never forget. When I look back, I realize how crucial that was. If you’re supporting someone in addiction, know that your love matters. You may not be able to fix them, but your presence, your belief in them, can make all the difference. Sometimes, just knowing someone is there and refusing to give up helps us hold on when we’re ready to let go.

This journey has taught me one important truth: no matter how dark it gets, there is always hope. Even when addiction feels like an unbreakable chain, there is a way out. My story is proof that you can find light in the darkness. If you’re struggling, or if you’re standing by someone who is, don’t give up. There is hope for healing and new beginnings. We are never too far gone. If I can find my way out, so can you. Hold onto hope. Reach out for help. And remember, you are never alone in this journey. Even in the darkest moments, the light of healing and transformation is always within reach.